Tired heart is always hovering between adhering to and giving up, indecisive. Trouble is that memory is good, the mind and should not mind will stay in memory.
The dream will not escape, which will run away is always yourself.
Don't worry too much about the ambiguous future, just make effort for explicit being present.
You can't change what has already happened, so don't waste your time thinking about it. Move on, let go ang get over it.
If you are not happy, it's time to change something.
You said "I won't make it" a million times, You made it every time.
To be a happy man, reading, travel, hard work, care for body and mind.
The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core of strength within you that survives all hurt.
The tragedy of life is not that man loses but that man almost wins.